Yes. CMBYN makes 16 year old me so jealous. I often say that I'll never be as sexual as I was then. I wish that the testosterone hit in a man's 20's instead of around 12. ALL I did as a teen was dream of being with another guy ( usually older) and in eastern ky, that wasn't about to happen. Obviously, for various reasons, the adult me is glad that I didn't find a 23 year old to obsess over because I had nowhere near the emotional maturity to process that or to know if I was being taken advantage of in anyway ( worst case scenario, but likely, a nefarious manner). But as much as 16 year old me sees CMBYN as an amazing fantasy, the adult me sees it as a reflection of relationships I've had that were impossible and the beautiful, horrible ache of them.